Sunday, January 07, 2007



Dear Diary,

I watched 'The Wedding Date' a couple nights ago and here are a couple quotes that really popped out at me. I definately identify with the first one.... its one that I feel like I'm constantly struggling with.

The hardest thing is loving someone and then having the courage to let them love you back.

Nick: Close your eyes. Close your eyes. Close... your... eyes. You're safe. You can relax. I'm not going to kiss you. He's gonna be so sorry he lost you, so stop worrying. Forget the past. Forget the pain. And remember what an incredible woman you are. You do that and he'll realize what he lost.
Kat: Holy crap. You're worth every penny.


Sometimes I wish I already had all of the answers. That I knew the person I would not only end up becoming but also who I would end up with. I know that I am submissive and I want to be with a dominant man, but I also want him to have time for me... really have time for me. If I'm sick, I need more attention than I normally would so that I know that when we are together-together he will be able to take care of me. I know that is a big fear for me, that no one will be there to take care of me when I'm sick or old. I am the person in my family that takes care of everyone and everything, from hospital stays to treating the flu, I'm the girl they call. And I do it, happy that I am able to be there for them... but when I'm sick, no one has time for me. I know that is why I'm so hard on guys I am talking with or dating. maybe that is why I try so desperatley to push them away when I'm sick.

This time of year everyone is talking about resolutions and whatnot. So here are mine, in the form of proverbs of course :)

Don't let your past dictate who you are but let it be part of who you will become.

What you do speaks so loudly that I cannot hear what you say.

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