Chemistry. One little word, three syllables, and a scientific definition.

This doesn't even begin to describe what I've experienced. If I had to provide a definition, I would have to say that chemistry is intense... inextinguishable... intoxicating... white hot... all-consuming... It lingers in the air and on your skin even after you have parted from the man that ignites it. But it doesn't leave you feeling empty, but warm and so very alive. It doesn't matter how long it has been, days, weeks, months, all it takes is that initial touch to set your entire body aflame. I have only experienced this level of sexual spark with one other person. A friend, a close friend, that I spend time with from time to time.

There are two different types of chemistry. The first type, previously mentioned, is physical chemistry. The second type, is an emotional chemistry. An example of emotional chemistry is a friendship that can be rekindled instantly, no matter the time or physical distance is between two people. I have this kind of emotional chemistry with asrai. It isn't sexual or otherwise physical, but is emotionally profound.

I hope I will have both of these kinds of chemistries with that the One I will, one day, belong to. I don't want to be able to shut down on him, and if I do, he can reach me either emotionally or physically. I understand that desires change over time, but I think they can be made stronger too, even if its for different reasons than they initially developed. I found this quote and like how it says what I'm falling over my words to say.

Those who restrain their desires, do so because

theirs is weak enough to be restrained. ~William Blake

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