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  ~Paris Hilton that’s just fabulous. ~Sex in the City music of your soul. ~Katharine Hepburn ~Margaret Cho ~Henry James
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Sunday, December 23, 2007 I received the best Christmas present ever yesterday morning. Mom and I kept my 10-month old baby cousin, MJ, over the weekend. MJ is absolutely beautiful, smart, and so very funny. That little girl has one hell of a personality and I cannot wait to continue watching her grow and develop into the fiery woman I know she will become. Anyway, Mom was up first and got MJ from my cousin. I was still asleep and I felt these little fingers on my nose and cheek. I looked and there was MJ in the bed with me! Mom was there too, she had let MJ wake me up. It was amazing to wake up to the innocence of a baby. MJ squealed and smiled when she heard me say her name, I’ve never… felt anything like that before. Because of my fibro, I may never be able to have children. Between the hormone stuff going on and the actual fibro, I’m confident modern medicine could help me actually conceive, but I fear not being able to properly care for a child because of the pain and fogginess that comes with the FM. I will not bring a child into the world unless I can not only care for every need of the child but offer the best life possible. Sometimes my mind drifts to those small things I would not get to experience without a child of my own. One of them, would be seeing him/her the first thing in the morning. However… mom gave me that this weekend. I think somehow she knew… and I will never forget it. Labels: family  
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~His Pixie~ my best fairy friend who dazzled up this template with her fabulous pixie dust and imagination.
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