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  ~Paris Hilton that’s just fabulous. ~Sex in the City music of your soul. ~Katharine Hepburn ~Margaret Cho ~Henry James
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Monday, December 31, 2007
 Daily Tarrot Card The Lovers card affirms my alter ego is a port key to a Soul Mate or deal, whose superpower is compatibility in the midst of reconciling dichotomy to interconnect as a whole new entity or 'color.' To be or not to be: at ultimatum or rival tensions mounting, negotiating acceptable trade-offs validates our unique perspectives to reflect what each lacks for a balanced voice of truce. When we're together I'm beside myself, so I concede mutual vested interest, incentive or opportunity to my other half for valued consideration. For only by the power of self-respect in reciprocal vulnerability, need and compassion do 'me and thee consummate we.' The rest is all a dance on the sidelines of Cinderella Pandering or prohibition, or around a Bermuda Triangle of bottom line temptation to cheat by provocation, promiscuity, or shame. But here at the gate of impasse, I still have a choice and my pride. Labels: Horoscopes  
 Friday, December 28, 2007   Live your life each day as you would climb a mountain. An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind, but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each new vantage point. -- Harold B. Melchart Labels: quotes
Sunday, December 23, 2007 I received the best Christmas present ever yesterday morning. Mom and I kept my 10-month old baby cousin, MJ, over the weekend. MJ is absolutely beautiful, smart, and so very funny. That little girl has one hell of a personality and I cannot wait to continue watching her grow and develop into the fiery woman I know she will become. Anyway, Mom was up first and got MJ from my cousin. I was still asleep and I felt these little fingers on my nose and cheek. I looked and there was MJ in the bed with me! Mom was there too, she had let MJ wake me up. It was amazing to wake up to the innocence of a baby. MJ squealed and smiled when she heard me say her name, I’ve never… felt anything like that before. Because of my fibro, I may never be able to have children. Between the hormone stuff going on and the actual fibro, I’m confident modern medicine could help me actually conceive, but I fear not being able to properly care for a child because of the pain and fogginess that comes with the FM. I will not bring a child into the world unless I can not only care for every need of the child but offer the best life possible. Sometimes my mind drifts to those small things I would not get to experience without a child of my own. One of them, would be seeing him/her the first thing in the morning. However… mom gave me that this weekend. I think somehow she knew… and I will never forget it. Labels: family
Thursday, December 20, 2007  Each breath brings little relief, each movement of my body screams in anger, the pain a heavy weight that keeps the mind from focusing. Please, just give me my medicine and let me sleep. Please just let me cry until the drugs kick in. Please keep the lights off. Please keep the noise way down. My body cannot handle the sensations, each bright light and loud sound is like needles to my head. Please just leave me to this so that when I wake up, I can feel much better. Days like this, make me question the ability to handle anything more, be responsible for much more, or be able to totally surrender every single moment of every single day. I do not claim days like this, I have released all control and surrender to the fibromyalgia. This way, I do not feel guilty for not demanding myself to do more, or force myself to suffer through it or "be a trooper" and work against it. This way I can obey my body, remain in rest and wait on the new day. Posted on 12/23/07 based on notes made on 12/20/07. Labels: cross-posted
Sunday, December 16, 2007 The last few weeks have been.... unbelievably stressful and packed with major life events. I made up my mind over the weekend that I can't do the stress anymore. I'm going to start relaxing and let life deal the cards. Then, this morning, I read my horoscope. It really perked me up and confirmed that I'm doing the right thing. elana's Horoscope for December 16, 2007 The key word for you today is boundaries, elana, so think for a minute about what this means to you. It is time to sit down with yourself and have a serious talk. Set some limits for yourself and be honest about where you should go about drawing the line. Your health, your state of mind, and your relationships with others all depend on your taking the initiative to know when to say no in certain situations. Labels: cross-posted, Horoscopes
Thursday, December 13, 2007 Interesting Reindeer Facts... that are true! According to the Alaska Department of Fish and Game, while both male and female reindeer grow antlers in the summer each year, male reindeer drop their antlers at the beginning of winter, usually late November to mid-December. Female reindeer retain their antlers till after they give birth in the spring. Therefore, according to EVERY historical rendition depicting Santa's reindeer, EVERY single one of them, from Rudolph to Blitzen, had to be a girl. We should have known... ONLY women would be able to drag a fat-ass man in a red velvet suit all around the world in one night and not get lost.
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~His Pixie~ my best fairy friend who dazzled up this template with her fabulous pixie dust and imagination.
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You should probably be in a very happy state of mind on this New Year's Eve. You'll likely be traveling a short 